Grace, Mercy & Miracles

So when God told me in 2015, that it was time. I didn’t fully understand what that meant, but I went through every open door and wherever the Holy Spirit would lead me.
I laid down my life and went into the darkest places walking in Christ Jesus and without fear. I had nothing to brag about, because I was nothing before that, but when I let God take over, everything changed and nothing was about me anymore. I died and my life was hidden in God. I went to help the kids suffering in foster care by volunteering not only my time, but I gave all of my belongings and resources and went into debt to help them set up a new way for God to come through and help.
They tried to keep me out of the building which was a bit rough at first but I kept going and kept loving and blessing them all.
I stayed in spite of all the hatred and accusations and belittling and even the abusing and taking advantage of me. I was perfectly content to do anything that God wanted of me, because it wasn’t about me or my reputation.

I laid down my life in order to bring peace and healing to a huge piece of our community that needed to know what it looks like to do better and be better, because they were finally able to feel valued and so they could thrive in the places that they were and realize that the work wasn’t about all the negative stuff surrounding it, but about the hearts of the people working together for a bigger or greater purpose. The children needed love and they needed hope and faith in something that was bigger than anything man could do to destroy. Love was able to heal and bring people together to see from a higher viewpoint that makes it so much easier to see and understand, because one person was dedicated to praying all of those things through while walking alongside the people and showing them how God really is.
A merciful, kind, lover who is generous and genuine. Who doesn’t walk away when things get tough or people get ugly. But he brings peace and helps encourage and offer truth for lasting results.
When people can’t figure out what to do with you, because you refuse to give up on them, they suddenly don’t want to act so slanderous and cruel. They don’t want to do things poorly or keep finger pointing and accusing others, but they want to keep peace and respect others and offer themselves to help where there is a need. It is about Christ in us. And those people didn’t act like Christians and I assumed none were, but I later saw that all of them at one time or another had made Jesus Lord, but they never knew who he was. So I got to show them through my life which I had fully surrendered to Christ for whatever he wanted to use it for.
I would have worked in a laundry mat if that meant people would be rescued and lives saved. It doesn’t matter where we are. A prison cell for Paul did more than any another apostle ever in history, so anyway. James was the book that helped me fully grasp the reality of what is good and right and what is of no value and a waste of time. Good works wont save a person, but good works done in faith from a pure heart of love with no ulterior motives or selfish intentions will produce a harvest of righteousness one day.

James 3

“My dear brothers and sisters, don’t be so eager to become a teacher in the church since you know that we who teach are held to a higher standard of judgment. We all fail in many areas, but especially with our words. Yet if we’re able to bridle the words we say we are powerful enough to control ourselves in every way, and that means our character is mature and fully developed. Horses have bits and bridles in their mouths so that we can control and guide their large body. And the same with mighty ships, though they are massive and driven by fierce winds, yet they are steered by a tiny rudder at the direction of the person at the helm. And so the tongue is a small part of the body yet it carries great power! Just think of how a small flame can set a huge forest ablaze. And the tongue is a fire! It can be compared to the sum total of wickedness and is the most dangerous part of our human body. It corrupts the entire body and is a hellish flame! It releases a fire that can burn throughout the course of human existence. For every wild animal on earth including birds, creeping reptiles, and creatures of the sea and land have all been overpowered and tamed by humans, but the tongue is not able to be tamed. It’s a fickle, unrestrained evil that spews out words full of toxic poison! We use our tongue to praise God our Father and then turn around and curse a person who was made in his very image! Out of the same mouth we pour out words of praise one minute and curses the next. My brothers and sisters, this should never be! Would you look for olives hanging on a fig tree or go to pick figs from a grapevine? Is it possible that fresh and bitter water can flow out of the same spring? So neither can a bitter spring produce fresh water. If you consider yourself to be wise and one who understands the ways of God, advertise it with a beautiful, fruitful life guided by wisdom’s gentleness. Never brag or boast about what you’ve done and you’ll prove that you’re truly wise. But if there is bitter jealousy or competition hiding in your heart, then don’t deny it and try to compensate for it by boasting and being phony. For that has nothing to do with God’s heavenly wisdom but can best be described as the wisdom of this world, both selfish and devilish. So wherever jealousy and selfishness are uncovered, you will also find many troubles and every kind of meanness. But the wisdom from above is always pure, filled with peace, considerate and teachable. It is filled with love and never displays prejudice or hypocrisy in any form and it always bears the beautiful harvest of righteousness! Good seeds of wisdom’s fruit will be planted with peaceful acts by those who cherish making peace.”
‭‭James (Jacob)‬ ‭3‬:‭1‬-‭1